"More than that, I count all things to be loss in view of the surpassing value of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whom I have suffered the loss of all things, and count them but rubbish so that I may gain Christ, 9 and may be found in Him, not having a righteousness of my own derived from the Law, but that which is through faith in Christ, the righteousness which comes from God on the basis of faith, 10 that I may know Him and the power of His resurrection and the fellowship of His sufferings, being conformed to His death; 11 in order that I may attain to the resurrection from the dead."
In the carnal realm, ambition is to be appalled. Yet in the realm of the spiritual, it is the driving force of identification with Christ and knowledge of God. Ambition for the glory of God is a virtue, not a vice, and may God permit that we as saints embody it in an ever increasing fashion.
The apostle Paul pursued the knowledge of God and union with Christ with a holy conflagration. He saw the knowledge of Christ as being the most valuable thing that a human being could ever have, and he was willing to disregard everything that would hinder obtaining such a precious possession. He wanted to be "found in Him" and "know Him in the power of His resurrection and fellowship of His suffering". Paul wanted nothing less than total identification with the life of the Son of God. The Greek word translated "found" gives the idea to "learn the whereabouts or location of something". In other words, if someone where on the hunt to find Paul, he hoped that they would discover that his whereabouts, the totality of his life, is in Christ Jesus. This is the same idea that Paul speaks of in Col. 3:3, "we are hidden in Christ in God." Paul wanted this hiddeness to be a reality in his life. He wanted to be invisible; totally absorbed and overflowing with Christ. He wanted nothing of himself to be visible: "not having a righteousness of my own derived from the Law, but that which is through faith in Christ." All this man wanted was Jesus. Everything else was "rubbish." The word translated "rubbish" is actually the vulgar Greek word skubalon and is equivalent to the word s**t. It is a word that has been found on ancient Greek graffiti. Yes, Paul uses profanity, and he uses it to make a drastic point. And believe me, it was as shocking to the original audience as it is to us. Paul wanted to make sure that we knew what everything else really was in comparison to Christ. Paul wanted to participate in the fullness of Christ resurrection and suffering. Again, he wanted absolute identification with Christ. Nothing less would do.
God wants us to pursue him with this kind of holy ardor. To pursue anything else is idolatry. In fact, to pursue anything else is well, to pursue a big pile of you know what; and that it what it is worth. In our culture of selfism and human exaltation we indeed know about passion; we know about ambition. However, the type of passion and ambition is one that is self-centered and worthy of judgment in hell. As Christians, we need to ask ourselves, "Why do I pursue God? Why do I pray? Why do I read my Bible?" I have notice that Christians can fall into the trap of pursuing God for all the wrong reasons. The idea that "Christ is first" becomes used as a misnomer. It is a statement that some use to justify their selfish ambition, and coat their sinful desires with spiritual language
Yes, people can fall into the trap of pursing God as a means. He becomes their source, but not their ambition. They hold on to their selfish ambition and pursuit of the world, and try to use the spiritual resources of God to help them reach their end. We say that we believe that God is the center, but again this is a misnomer. We say that God is the center of the universe, and then imply that this One who is the center of the universe, exists for me! We present Christ not as one to be pursued because He is worthy; not as one to be pursued because this is what He requires; not one to be pursued because it is all about Him and His glory and fame.
No, we often fall into the trap that God is to be pursed as the center of the universe because I won't be happy with out Him; my marriage won't work without Him; my life won't be fulfilled without Him; I'll never reach my potential without Him; I'll never have a great ministry without Him; I'll never reach my goals and aspirations without Him. God exists to fulfill me, comfort me, and help me. And you know what this is- skubalon.
All the while we forget that God exists to be worshiped! To be pursued! To be sought after and obeyed! Salvation is not about us, but about God! He chose us, we did not choose Him. He chose us not to enhance our lives or fulfill us, but to form the image of His Son in us (Rm. 8:28-30). All of these other things are a by product of my pursuit of God. The end goal; the prime product, is God Himself. Paul understood this, and saw identification and knowledge of Christ as things that were of surpassing value.
The apostle John said in his first letter that the world and all its lust are passing away, but the one who does the will of the Father abides forever. So, pursue God, not the world. We need to serve Him and stop trying to use Him to help us get all that we can out of life, because in the end, we will have nothing.
So, what is your life going to be about? Are you going to keep it for yourself, or are you going to lay it on the alter of God and let Him consume it with holy fire. If you lay it on the alter, you can be sure of one thing: That because so few are alive and burning, the light of your fire will shine brightly with the glory of the Lord. If you hold on, you'll be like all the rest. So, you can try to use God or serve God. Calculate Him into your pursuits or make Him your pursuit. Pursue Christ as your most noble ambition. There will be a day of judgment that will bring everything to light. Where will you be found? In Christ? I pray so.